It’s so amazing how one can find no time, when there is time, even though they really don’t have the time. I have wanted to get back into my blog for months. MONTHS I tell you! I haven’t written here since February 2018. And amongst the sheer disappointment of everything I do always coming to a complete halt, this blog was no different.
Sometime last week (I think it was last week) I opened up WordPress as I began writing an article for an online magazine- more on that another time. I decided to take a look at my blog. Because ya know, someone was going to miraculously start writing posts, and it was going to be transformed overnight without me even so much as opening the app in all those months.
I realized that at one time I had enough time to do something that I loved, which was blogging. I did it when my son was much younger than he is now. They say it gets easier as they get older, but whoever “they” are, are simply assholes. I am in more demand now with my son being six, than I was when he was two. I mean yea, a lot has changed. My life is different. Different people. Jobs. Locations. Different. But why does my love for writing on my blog have to take a backseat to everything?
I’ll admit, when I originally had my blog, The Get Fit Mom, I dedicated hours to social media, content, graphics, and really connecting with my readers. When I look back I can see that I had so many “friends” in the blogosphere, but none here on earth. Now the tables have turned. I have a ton of people in my life, and not even a smidge of an online prescence. I am literally writing right now to make myself feel better. You should feel honored actually, this here post is comparable to a diary entry.
I think the pressure for me to write on my blog comes from the need to be where I was at before. I looked like a blogger, and lived like a blogger.
But right now, I am a writer.
And I think that is a hard pill to swallow. If I want to start doing something, I have to start doing some thing. So here is yet another baby step to moving toward something that I want.